renewed
I am standing on the brink of official adulthood.
Funny, how I feel more and more like a little girl as each day passes.
I think turning 21 might be over rated. :) Its not like i'm gonna receive a stunning revelation overnight and become a completely new person. I'm still the same, just that I'm gonna be an adult now, no more excuses.
But when I sit and think about the past 10 months, I realise that this year has been indeed my coming-of-age. So many things happened, things that changed the way I look at things, the way I think, and things that have changed me.
I'd like very much to be able to say that I've changed for the better, but as we are all our harshest critics, I can see a vast gap between who I am and who I want to be.
but most of all, I just want to be happy.
Attachment causes suffering, yet such realities are not able to move our limbs, mind and heart to sever all ties to that which causes us grief. Again, people just revel in misery because it is so much easier to get lost in feeling bad than to make an effort to be positive. A woman once said that being positive is the highest form of creativity she knows, and she's right. It takes such energy, creativity, will and determination to stay on the right track.
Like the proverbial moth to a flame, we often see the danger yet choose to close our eyes and plunge into the darkness. Why? I just dont understand it.
But whatever it is, the only person that can make me happy is me. Because its a choice only I can make.
That shall be my wish for turning 21 tomorrow, that I have the discipline, self-respect and love to choose to be happy.
Happy 21st Birthday, darling...
Funny, how I feel more and more like a little girl as each day passes.
I think turning 21 might be over rated. :) Its not like i'm gonna receive a stunning revelation overnight and become a completely new person. I'm still the same, just that I'm gonna be an adult now, no more excuses.
But when I sit and think about the past 10 months, I realise that this year has been indeed my coming-of-age. So many things happened, things that changed the way I look at things, the way I think, and things that have changed me.
I'd like very much to be able to say that I've changed for the better, but as we are all our harshest critics, I can see a vast gap between who I am and who I want to be.
but most of all, I just want to be happy.
Attachment causes suffering, yet such realities are not able to move our limbs, mind and heart to sever all ties to that which causes us grief. Again, people just revel in misery because it is so much easier to get lost in feeling bad than to make an effort to be positive. A woman once said that being positive is the highest form of creativity she knows, and she's right. It takes such energy, creativity, will and determination to stay on the right track.
Like the proverbial moth to a flame, we often see the danger yet choose to close our eyes and plunge into the darkness. Why? I just dont understand it.
But whatever it is, the only person that can make me happy is me. Because its a choice only I can make.
That shall be my wish for turning 21 tomorrow, that I have the discipline, self-respect and love to choose to be happy.
Happy 21st Birthday, darling...
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